Oh, baby! I can't believe I'm pregnant.
I found out I was pregnant Wednesday, September 4, 2019. I hadn't been feeling like myself for a week or so and I was late. I have never been regular but a week is pushing it. I took a test that morning and it came out positive. I made an excuse that I did it wrong. I took it again that evening and same result. I'm pregnant! Joy overwhelmed me when I found out and then fear. We weren't planning on starting a family yet and there was even discussion that it was too late for us. Beaux and I are 37 and 36 respectively. With some of my health concerns, I thought it wasn't going to happen without a little scientific help. But things just have a way for working itself out. It was a rough couple of day but after the shock wore off, we're overjoyed with our miracle baby.
I went to the doctor a week later with Beaux's mom, Mollie. Beaux had to work and mom had volunteered to go to the first appointment with me. Let me tell you there is a whole lot of information thrown at you that first visit. Dr. Delgado went over my medical history, the tests he recommends and how things would work. Let's just say there was an onslaught of information to take in. Then came the first ultrasound. Mom got on Facebook video with Beaux so he could see baby too.
Oh my god. Seeing you for the first time was amazing. You were no bigger than a pea at 6 weeks and a few days but already captured my heart. At this point, you're all heart beating furiously away. I started calling you Nugget on this day.. Beaux thinks it's because you were sort of shaped like a nugget but my mom always said from her marriage she got three nuggets - my brothers and I. We were her nuggets of precious gold... just like you're precious to me.
It's been a few weeks since that first appointment. I'm at 8 weeks and 2 days. I have been talking to you every day. I ask you to grow strong and healthy snuggled inside me. I am not a terribly religious person but I have been praying to every diety and ancestor I can think of for you to be safe. I can't explain the fear and joy I am feeling all at once. There are days I don't feel pregnant and it scares me. This new digital age where information and MIS-information is at our fingertips does not help. I talk about my fears to your dad and he does his best to reassure me that things are going to be ok.
We try to read to you every night. Your dad ask if music was good too and I said yes. Did you know what he busted out with.. Vanilla Ice's Play that funky music (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zNJ8_Dh3Onk) It's a classic - not really. He followed that up with Stevie Ray Vaughan. Music will probably be a big part of your life as soon as you come into this world. And, I promise to love you every minute of every day that you're in it.
I went to the doctor a week later with Beaux's mom, Mollie. Beaux had to work and mom had volunteered to go to the first appointment with me. Let me tell you there is a whole lot of information thrown at you that first visit. Dr. Delgado went over my medical history, the tests he recommends and how things would work. Let's just say there was an onslaught of information to take in. Then came the first ultrasound. Mom got on Facebook video with Beaux so he could see baby too.
Oh my god. Seeing you for the first time was amazing. You were no bigger than a pea at 6 weeks and a few days but already captured my heart. At this point, you're all heart beating furiously away. I started calling you Nugget on this day.. Beaux thinks it's because you were sort of shaped like a nugget but my mom always said from her marriage she got three nuggets - my brothers and I. We were her nuggets of precious gold... just like you're precious to me.
It's been a few weeks since that first appointment. I'm at 8 weeks and 2 days. I have been talking to you every day. I ask you to grow strong and healthy snuggled inside me. I am not a terribly religious person but I have been praying to every diety and ancestor I can think of for you to be safe. I can't explain the fear and joy I am feeling all at once. There are days I don't feel pregnant and it scares me. This new digital age where information and MIS-information is at our fingertips does not help. I talk about my fears to your dad and he does his best to reassure me that things are going to be ok.
We try to read to you every night. Your dad ask if music was good too and I said yes. Did you know what he busted out with.. Vanilla Ice's Play that funky music (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zNJ8_Dh3Onk) It's a classic - not really. He followed that up with Stevie Ray Vaughan. Music will probably be a big part of your life as soon as you come into this world. And, I promise to love you every minute of every day that you're in it.
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